The Little Things.
posted by FinleyIt’s odd, when one notes the passing of an event or anniversary with little-to-no fanfare.
Friday was the anniversary of me making the move to Oklahoma City. A year ago this time, I was in a hotel room awaiting the chance to move into my apartment. It was frozen over outside, and would remain so for several days.
It’s been a year of change for me, moreso than usual in fact. I’ve become a happier person, but went through some serious heartache to get there. I finally have some closure on a bit of personal strife, and it took physical distance from the situation to finally achieve such. It was the year in which I’ve made the most money in a twelve month period ever.
It’s also been a year of me finally, finally letting go of the little things. You know, the little things that would build up and eventually ruin any chance of a good mood on my part. Learning to let go and finally just let myself be happy has been huge.
Physically, it’s been a year of change as well. I’ve lost 55 pounds since my heaviest weight. I’m wearing sizes that I haven’t worn since high school. That’s pretty nice, to be honest.
All in all, things are actually good right now. One year in, and I’m doing alright.
There is still that overwhelming desire to return to Austin, no doubt. I want to be there badly- but on my terms.I need to know that my return to Austin will be one of triumph, not one of failure or giving up what I have careerwise.
There’s also the idea of moving on. In this case, it’s moving on from so many things that have kept me depressed for so long. Family issues, the pain of unreturned feelings, and just finally letting go of private, unreasonable guilt I’ve held onto for so long. I’ve finally learned how to move on and let go of things, and to let my guard down a bit.
It’s funny, really. I came here to advance my career. I found so many other things, that despite my desire to leave I’m glad I came here.
Out.
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