Today is Saturday and I’m dealing with it with mixed emotions. Normally, I love Saturdays…sleeping in, not working. But, today is the last Saturday for Big Daddy and me as we know it. Next Saturday, we become instant full-time parents of a 7 year old. We’ve been fighting for full custody of Joseph for a long time, and we are very excited about it, but I have to admit that it’s scary. I feel like we should make an impromtu run to Vegas or stay out on 6th St. all night in order to sow the last of our wild oats. Instead, I’m going to paint the dresser in Joseph’s room and round up some school supplies. Big Daddy is watching The Usual Suspects and having a stogie.

Anxiety is a funny thing. It fills you up inside with excitement and anticipation, but eats your insides with fear and apprehension. Will I be a good mom? Will we lose our friends? Will we be able to afford another mouth to feed? Will my hair turn gray immediately, or will it hold out a few years? These are all difficult questions to contemplate. They say that children are the best blessing a couple can have. I think a good support system of friends is a blessing, too.

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